people often say that certain experiences stay with you forever. say no more! because even three years on, i still feel it vividly. i want to put it into words, so its captured and remembered.
i experienced a loss once, a pain that changed me.
then, unexpectedly, a life was already growing inside me. a tiny heartbeat i discovered by chance. i kept it to myself for a few days, just trying to take it all in. well, the journey wasn’t easy. there were moments of fear and anxious all the time with a repeated bleeding & nights spent in the hospital. every day, i prayed for that life to be safe, no matter what happened to me.
when the time came, it was long and exhausting with complications and it took hours of strength i didn’t know i had. but somehow, i was carried through it. through it all, there was beauty- a little life that brought light and meaning into everything. i name her Hilya Zea that reflects beauty and life, a reminder that even in the hardest times, a precious soul can grow!
looking back now, i understand some journeys are quiet, difficult, and uncertain. but some things, no matter how they begin, are simply meant to stay. and sometimes, the strength to get there was never ours alone.
Terima kasih, Allah.
